“It’s not enough that I succeed. You must also fail.”
Thinking like this is a massive waste of time and energy. Don’t succumb to this fool’s errand. An eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind.
Conan didn’t have to spend time thinking about making himself better, since he was already the most jacked, badass Barbarian on the planet. He could focus all of his energy on crushing his enemies, seeing them driven before him, and hearing the lamentation of their women.
You are not Conan.